So, although this posting has nothing to do with breast cancer I did want to also let everyone know about some thing else that is going on in my life.
Most of you that have been around Ted and I for the past few years know that our marriage has been strained. In the spring Ted decided that he no longer wanted to be married to me and was ready to move on. He said that we had simply drifted apart and our friends and interests were just too different. I was utterly devastated by his decision. He agreed to stay in the house until August to finish it so I can sell it and move on. When I was diagnosed with breast cancer after some very hard discussions Ted said that he was would stay until I finished my treatments and help Tiger Lily and I through this.
I realized last weekend while I was in Iowa that when I asked him to put on hold the new life he had already started to live before I was diagnosed with cancer that this was something that was unfair to both of us. Although he has been supportive throughout this I can not continue to hope that things are different than what they are and so last week he moved in with his friend's father. We are now attempting to maintain a friendship after 20 years of marriage so that Tiger Lily knows how much she is loved. He has promised to help me through my treatments even though he won't be living with us and that he really will finish the house this fall. I believe him which is why the decision for him to leave, although difficult, was a necessary one so I can also begin to heal my soul.
Please understand that this is a very painful time for me and I apologize ahead of time if I don't answer phone calls or emails but I will heal and I will also survive this.